Day 63

So I found an apartment that's located near to my work place. I'm still not convinced if I've made the right decision to stay here rather than move to the city, but it's a choice I've made, and I'll stick to it. Having found an apartment doesn't mean the problems are all solved, there's still other nitty gritty stuff to be handled before I can finally move in and have a sanctuary of my own.

Oh well, at least one item's been checked and I'm one step nearer to it. ;)

The boyfriend will be flying home tomorrow for 3 weeks. I hate the fact of being alone but I guess I should have anticipated it when I first decided to come back here, ... anyhow, hopefully things at work will look better in the coming weeks.


I know I can do this.

Day 51

oh wow, I passed the 50 days mark, ... and still surviving.


searching for a new apartment is nerve-wrecking, and sad to say, I have yet to find one that's of my liking but still within my budget. I'm still pretty much undecided on where to move to, and honestly speaking, I don't know if moving is a good idea after all.


ARGH.

Day 43

I've been contemplating for awhile now whether I should move.

I'm okay staying in a shared apartment, I mean the people are nice, the room's well furnished and the apartment is more than adequately equipped. What more can I ask for?

Privacy.

It's not like anyone's intruding my privacy, but sometimes I just want to have a space completely for myself and the freedom to do anything in my very own place. And I want just that. To be able to walk around the house in torn t-shirts, to walk into the bathroom any time when I need to and stay however long I want to, to not have unwashed dishes in the sink bother me or people walking into the house with their shoes on, to not have to engage in small talks when I don't feel like it, ... I don't think I need to elaborate further.

Of course, all these comes with a price too - higher rent, paying more for utilities as well as getting additional furniture and equipment. But for once, I think I should listen to my heart, and not let money bother me.

Also, I'm quite undecided whether I should move to the city or stay nearby to my workplace. There's pros and cons for both choices, ... I would so love to stay in the city, be able to get authentic Asian food, be nearer to people I know. But at the same time, I also dread the thought of having to spend almost 2 hours of my day commuting to and fro to work.

Whoever said that life's easy?


Le sigh.

Day 40

Is the novelty finally wearing off?



... if no, why do i feel vibes of misery? :/

Day 38

Had a wonderful weekend in strasbourg with the boyfriend. ♥ It's such a beautiful city that I'm surprised that it has never crossed my mind to visit here before. Perhaps it's not such a bad idea to be back here, to have a second chance to experience and explore things that I've taken for granted.

On the other hand, oh wow, it has been more than a month since I left home! There are still a lot of considerations, uncertainties and frustrations in my mind, but I think for now, let's just sit back and watch how the future unravels. :)