Just this week, I had a couple of people asking me if I did regret, throwing what I had back home to come here. I'm not regretting it yet, but I'm not sure if the same could be said in a couple of months' time.
I've considered my options, weighed the pros and cons multiple times before I made my decision. I am well aware of the things that I will have to sacrifice in order to achieve what I came here for. So it's not like I did not expect some of the glitches I face today; things have been good so far, not very well, but hey, it could have been worse, no? I'm grateful that I still see the silver lining to my whole predicament here and that things are still going on as planned.
Nevertheless, it did got me thinking, if I had made the right choice. The way I rationalize to myself is that, a couple of years down the road, I don't want to look back and regret that I've not seized the opportunity, and I know that these things don't come often knocking on your door. Also, if it's really not meant to be, I could always pack my bags and return to the place where I call home. Sounds perfect, but ... is this really what I want?
To be honest, I don't really know if this is what I want. Heck, I don't even know what exactly do I want. My ever practical self tells me that this is the right thing to do, but the little voice in me keeps reminding me that I'm missing out on a lot of things. It's something that I've been struggling with for a long time, and till today, I'm not entirely sure what my priorities are and should be.
Recently, I watched a drama that revolves around the dilemmas that women today face. Indeed, I feel that a lot of it were relevant to me. In the end, the moral of the story that I learned (although I'm not sure if that was intended) was that we can never have it all. And it's true when I look around me, I see many intelligent and capable women who took a step back on their career to take care of and to have time for their children and family. No doubt it's such a selfless and loving thing to do, but I'm not sure if I could ever make such a huge sacrifice. On the other hand, I see some high-flying, successful and independent women who's fighting a tough battle up the career ladder, but come home to an empty home. I've always believed that in today's world, career and family are no longer trade-offs, but time and again, I'm reminded that there will always be a need for a compromise.
How much are you willing to sacrifice? At the end of the day, what's really important to you? I don't have the answers to it now, but I do hope that it becomes clearer with time.
Despite the long babble, I know very well that this is a decision I made, and therefore, I shall and will stick to it. No regrets. :)
I've considered my options, weighed the pros and cons multiple times before I made my decision. I am well aware of the things that I will have to sacrifice in order to achieve what I came here for. So it's not like I did not expect some of the glitches I face today; things have been good so far, not very well, but hey, it could have been worse, no? I'm grateful that I still see the silver lining to my whole predicament here and that things are still going on as planned.
Nevertheless, it did got me thinking, if I had made the right choice. The way I rationalize to myself is that, a couple of years down the road, I don't want to look back and regret that I've not seized the opportunity, and I know that these things don't come often knocking on your door. Also, if it's really not meant to be, I could always pack my bags and return to the place where I call home. Sounds perfect, but ... is this really what I want?
To be honest, I don't really know if this is what I want. Heck, I don't even know what exactly do I want. My ever practical self tells me that this is the right thing to do, but the little voice in me keeps reminding me that I'm missing out on a lot of things. It's something that I've been struggling with for a long time, and till today, I'm not entirely sure what my priorities are and should be.
Recently, I watched a drama that revolves around the dilemmas that women today face. Indeed, I feel that a lot of it were relevant to me. In the end, the moral of the story that I learned (although I'm not sure if that was intended) was that we can never have it all. And it's true when I look around me, I see many intelligent and capable women who took a step back on their career to take care of and to have time for their children and family. No doubt it's such a selfless and loving thing to do, but I'm not sure if I could ever make such a huge sacrifice. On the other hand, I see some high-flying, successful and independent women who's fighting a tough battle up the career ladder, but come home to an empty home. I've always believed that in today's world, career and family are no longer trade-offs, but time and again, I'm reminded that there will always be a need for a compromise.
How much are you willing to sacrifice? At the end of the day, what's really important to you? I don't have the answers to it now, but I do hope that it becomes clearer with time.
Despite the long babble, I know very well that this is a decision I made, and therefore, I shall and will stick to it. No regrets. :)
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